TODAY WE HAD STRANGERS COME INTO OUR HOME. IT WAS FOR AN INSPECTION FOR CONDO-CONVERSION. IF YOU LIVE IN THE BAY AREA YOU KNOW WHAT HELL THIS CAN BE. SO HERE WE ARE HOUSE IN UTTER CHAOS, ME WITH DAY THREE OF 2 HOURS OF UNSOUND SLEEP. FOUR GUYS WITH NOTEPADS AND CLIPBOARDS INVADED MY MY MORNING. AS I PROCEEDED TO INTRODUCE MYSELF TO THE STRANGERS IN GET THIS OUR HOUSE...I NOTICED A COUPLE OF THEM SEEMED TO HAVE MISTAKEN ME FOR THE HELP,OR MAYBE THEY WERE AS OVER THIS HIDEOUS DAYLIGHT THING AS I WAS,(LONG HARD NIGHT) OR MAYBE THEY WERE SOME CLOSET BIGOT ASSHOLES, OR MAYBE THEY WERE JUST ASSHOLES WHO KNOWS? (BEING AF-AMER WE HAVE A HARD TIME TELLING SOMETIMES, WE GET IT FROM SO MANY DIRECTIONS IN THIS WAY, YOU KNOW POST JIM CROW TRAUMA)
THE POINT BEING EXACTLY THAT, AS THE BIG GORGEOUS BROWN HUNK OF MAN MEAT THAT I AM ITS HARD TO DISTINGUISH DISDAIN FROM APATHY FROM BIGOTRY FROM LACK OF SLEEP FROM A GENERAL SHITTY DISPOSITION.
HOW DO I KNOW IF SOMEONE IS BEING RUDE AND CALLOUS BECAUSE SIMPLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PRONE TO BE A DICK, OR MAYBE THEY HAD TO REFER TO THE HAND ONCE TO OFTEN OR THEY ARE CONCERNED ABOUT BILLS, OR HAVE A HEMORRHOID THAT IS A MONSTER...WHO CAN TELL.
WELL WHEN YOU COME INTO SOME ONES HOME...FOR WHAT EVER REASON, GENERALLY SAYING HELLO IS A GOOD IDEA, LEAST YOU BE MISTAKEN FOR A THIEF, JEHOVAH'S WITNESS, INSURANCE SALESPERSON,OR THE MOST FRIGHTENING OF ALL AN IN LAW (MY PARTNER IS A WHITE CHICK)
SO THIS ONE GUY GIVES ME THIS
"HEY BOY" KIND OF LOOK. I KNOW THIS LOOK I'M FROM THE SOUTH AND IVE SEEN ROOTS AT LEAST 20 TIMES..
I'M LIKE HI, WELCOME! HI, WELCOME! I HAD TO SAY IT A COUPLE TIMES...FINALLY HE REACHED OUT WITH HIS LIMP HAND SHAKE TO MEET MY MEAT HOOKS. WOW THE NERVE I THOUGHT, THEN I SAID TO MYSELF, SELF REMEMBER ALL WHITE PEOPLE ARE NOT CLOSET KLANSMAN, RELAX...SO I MOVE THE CHIP FROM MY SHOULDER TO MY BELLY ( I WAS HUNGRY). AS THE CHATTER WENT ON ABOUT THIS CODE AND THAT CODE...PRIMARILY REFERRING TO MY PARTNER, THE WHITE CHICK,
AS I'M STRUGGLING WITH A LADDER TO REACH THE CEILING WHICH HAPPENS TO BE 20 FEET ABOVE, HE CREEPS BEHIND ME AND SAYS..."I NEED TO GET THROUGH HERE BOY!" OKAY HE DID NT SAY BOY BUT HIS TONE SURE DID. NOW WHERE I'M FROM, YOU FIRST OF ALL SAY HELLO WHEN ENTERING SOMEONES HOME, YOU LOOK THEM IN THE EYE INTRODUCE YOURSELF, YOU SAY EXCUSE ME IF YOU WANT TO PASS THEM..ESP. IF THEY ARE 3 FEET TALLER THAN YOU AND 40 LBS HEAVIER AND YOU NEVER KNOW...(IT COULD BE ANGRY BLACK MAN OVER REACT AND FREAK OUT DAY)
WELL I LOOKED THIS JERK IN THE EYE AND SAID, YEAH IN A SECOND...
(REALIZING THIS WAS AN OFFICIAL WHOSE REPORT DEALT WITH OUR CONDO CONVERSION)
HE DECLINED TO WAIT , I DECLINED TO PUT MY FOOT IN HIS YOU KNOW WHAT( YEAH, THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN HELPFUL) BUT I AT LAST HAD ENOUGH. I TOLD THE WHITE CHICK, WHITE CHICK LOVE, I'M GOING FOR A FAG BEFORE I IMPLODE.SO I HOP IN THE CAR AND HEAD TO WHERE I GO TO SMOKE FAGS AND RELAX...THE CAR WASH STALL TWO BLOCKS AWAY.
AS I'M LISTENING TO THE RADIO SOME GUY, THE HEAD OF THE LIBERTARIAN PARTY IS RANTING ABOUT AFFIRMATIVE ACTION. HERE I AM IN A STATE OF BLACK ANGER AND HUMILIATED CONFUSION, AND THIS GUY IS CRYING ABOUT AFFIRMATIVE ACTION, WELL I WAS STEAMING NOW.
FOLKS WE HAVE SO MUCH HEALING TO DO IN THIS COUNTRY. I WILL ADMIT TO HAVING A CHIP ON MY SHOULDER TO HAVE BIGOTED,CHUAVANISTIC, TENDENCIES, TO BE HOMOPHOBIC, XENOPHOBIC,HATE SMALL ANIMALS, AND CRYING BABIES,$20 CARS WITH $2000 RIMS,CHURCH, SOGGY SANDWICHES, HELL SOMETIMES I SIMPLY HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY, BUT I AM AWARE THAT THIS IS NOT HOW I WANT TO BE. BUT OH BOY, SOME TIMES ...LIFE JUST HANDS YOU HATE ON A SILVER PLATTER.
LISTEN I HAVE MORE TO SAY ABOUT THIS I WANT TO CLARIFY IT. FOR ME AND ANYONE WHO GOT SUFFERED THE BAD GRAMMAR AND SPELLING TO GET THIS FAR (EMAIL I HAVE A PRIZE FOR YOU, REALLY!)
BASICALLY I WANT TO OFFER THIS AS A THOUGHT: RESPECT WORKS TWO WAYS.
AND AFFIRMATIVE ACTION?
WELL LOOK AT THE FOLLOWING PICTURES AND THINK ABOUT IT. IT AIN'T NEW ITS JUST SHIFTING ITS FOCUS...WHAT DO YOU THINK?
(PS MY WHITE CHICK POWER FRAU PARTNER LOVER, FRIEND, NEMESIS TRENCH-PAL ROCKS SO HARD SHE IS TRANSLUCENT.)
P.S
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS RACE!!!
